The Journey Of Self-Discovery In Disney’s Mulan: A Personal Reflection

When Disney’s “Mulan” hit theaters in the summer of 1998, I skipped it. My decision was rooted in a complex mix of cultural identity and personal exploration. As a Japanese American teen, I found myself largely uninterested in a Disney interpretation of Asian culture, preferring the vibrant worlds of anime instead. Looking back, I realize that this avoidance was not just a matter of taste, but a reflection of my own struggle with identity during that critical time in my life.

Years passed, and I felt a sort of sacrilege not having seen “Mulan.” People praised its empowering themes, emphasizing the importance of representation. When the live-action adaptation was set to premiere, I finally decided to watch the animated original. Unfortunately, I found myself wishing I liked it more than I did. The story centers on the legendary Chinese warrior Hua Mulan, a young woman torn between her own desires and her family's expectations.

In the animated classic, Mulan disguises herself as a man to protect her father by enlisting in the army. Despite being discovered and expelled, she continues to fight for what is right, ultimately saving China. This narrative resonated with many, particularly within Asian American and LGBTQ communities. I approached the film with anticipation, eager to understand the significance that others had found in it.

• Exploration of identity through the lens of cultural representation.
• The conflict between personal desires and familial expectations.
• The impact of societal norms on gender roles and identity.
• Reflection on the evolution of perceptions regarding gender over the years.

The early scenes of the film struck me as particularly relatable. Mulan, portrayed as a tomboy, navigates the rituals expected of her, yet struggles to fit into the societal mold. Her journey is not just about physical strength but an emotional battle to be accepted for who she is. This theme resonates deeply with anyone who has felt the weight of family expectations, especially in relation to duty and honor.

As I watched Mulan's story unfold, I couldn't help but reflect on my own experiences growing up in a partially immigrant household. The song “Reflection” captures the essence of this struggle perfectly, expressing the pain of hiding one's true self to conform to the expectations of others. I often wonder how I would have processed these themes as a teenager, especially when I was grappling with my own identity.

It's essential to approach films from over two decades ago with a mindful perspective. While some elements of “Mulan” may feel dated or even offensive today, the core message about gender performance is groundbreaking for its time. Mulan’s choice to disguise herself challenges the conventional notions of gender, demonstrating that strength and capability are not confined by societal expectations.

However, there are moments in the film that trivialize gender expression, such as comedic scenes that play on stereotypes. Thankfully, the live-action adaptation aims to present Mulan's struggle in a more serious light. Ultimately, Mulan discovers acceptance not only as a hero but also in her role within the family structure, reinforcing certain heteronormative tropes that are common in Disney films.

Reflecting on my journey, I recognize that “Mulan” was released at a time when I lacked the vocabulary to articulate my feelings about gender identity. It took years for me to understand that gender exists on a spectrum, and I’m grateful that I didn’t have to navigate these complexities as a teenager. Both Mulan and I have found our paths to self-acceptance, a testament to the importance of understanding and embracing who we truly are.